Friday, September 11, 2009

Sad Day

For some reason, this day has just been more and more sad as it goes on (except for that fact that I am eating an exceptionally delicious Subway sandwich- and watching my girth expand in the process). I found out that one of the girls at school has absolutely no money. She can't work, has a 3 year old daughter, and hardly has enough money for food. Shortly, she and her family will be evicted if they can't pay the rent. Her husband makes about $200 a week working at a pet store. I feel so bad for her, more than I can say. At the same time I am wondering, "how is she still in this program then?" Logistically speaking, when you have absolutely nothing as she has, wouldn't you give your all of what's left of your nothing to buy food for your daughter? And maybe stop coming to school to make money somehow, in some other way, in order to buy said food? I understand her wanting to come to school. But logistically, how can she? And the program itself, by all rights, would have kicked her out by now. She has missed so many classes and clinic sessions. They told us from the very start "this program will be your life while you're in it. if you can't dedicate your all, you can't be in it." So how is she still in? If colleges everywhere were to try to help people out, there wouldn't be colleges. I realize this sounds very cold and heartless, but I assure you I'm far from feeling that towards her. I want to help as much as I can. I'm just pondering how this is even happening. It doesn't make sense.
Another girl at school just lost her favorite uncle, and she was really upset today. I could tell she was on the verge of tears the entire class, but she just held it back. I wanted to hug her for a long time, and tell her I was praying for her, but she darted out after class.
I had to pick Matt up from work, because he could not work again today. He still feels horrible from his last seizure.
Just....a sad day. So far.... things can change, right?

2 comments:

  1. hey rachel... sorry to hear about your sad day... the world is a sad place; the only source of joy is to look to God.
    anyway..
    just thought i'd share a psalm... or rather pass it on. a friend shared it with me today



    Psalm 121

    A song of ascents.

    1 I lift up my eyes to the hills—
    where does my help come from?
    2 My help comes from the LORD,
    the Maker of heaven and earth.

    3 He will not let your foot slip—
    he who watches over you will not slumber;

    4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
    will neither slumber nor sleep.

    5 The LORD watches over you—
    the LORD is your shade at your right hand;

    6 the sun will not harm you by day,
    nor the moon by night.

    7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
    he will watch over your life;

    8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
    both now and forevermore.

    i really like this...

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  2. It's okay, I was just venting.....normally I'm not such a depressed loser. =P

    That's a cool Psalm! I like that one. It pretty much would serve to lift me up, no matter what mood I'm in.

    I'm glad you got on here! You should start a blogger, and forget xanga. lol

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